Diary

HEY.

Soo i finally listened to wale whole cd. & this track I like ALOT ALOT. so i wanted to share. :D

"Diary" -Wale

If i told you i wanted to talk to you,

You think i'm try'na holla at you,

And maybe i am but,

You wouldn't hear me out anyway's would you? ,

Rather lose love than to move on never knowing what it feel like,

Short days, long nights,

By the phone, no call,

Need a clear mind 'cause i been blind,

got me goin' down that road,

Heart made of stone,

Far away from home,

Black woman you cold,

Every problem you ever had with another man i gotta face,

Started off on thin ice,

Im still here but i cant skate,

Slow sink, cant breath, no remorse, dont think,

Listen to your friend get another man for a minute then repeat,

Queen, you deserve the title but she reject what i give, while she nurse the wounds by them,

Tried them didnt work,Diary of a black girl,

chorus

I wonder why i sit and cry,

Wish i could shed all these tears,

Im down and out,

Ill keep it moving and tryna get out,

I dont know how to move on,

Where i went wrong,

I wish i could live with no fear,

So down and out,

Ill keep it moving and tryna get out,

Somehow,

Verse

Raised by a momma who, who,

Hate her baby father so, so

She dont have a problem with, with,

Saying xxxx a nigga quick, quick,

Im just tryna be the one who never run, but you run away from me,

Girlfriends man cheat, cheat,

Why not me the same thing,

She cant see in me, what i see in her,
This pain she inherit cant be reversed,

I cant even stay living in the shade of all the xxxxxxxxxxxxx who played you,

The irony in that is that i aint even that, but you coulda been these pages,

Wife, you deserve the label but, but, you been hurt before so you dont feel your able,

Tried them didnt work, got impossible standards, nothing that i ever do works,

Diary of a black girl,

(chorus)

See all i wanna do is be relevant,

Just tell me that i ever meant anything more,

That you could ever see me and you in another light,

But its like the dark women indoors in the darkest nights by the wrong man,

See all of them have made you incapable of a first impression,

What it do is i channel my aggression with no cable or antenna,

Just intentions to impress you if capable,

Hoping that the material possesions can materialise to a better you,

Cars, nothing i drive can drive you out of this state of mind,

For such an ugly picture and,

Money, nothing i buy can buy more time for your ears to tell your heart to listen to it,

Diamonds, a girls best friend is what they say but believe me with the right allegience shorty you gonna shine anyways,

And everyday that goes by is a couple more lines in her diary,The day before is better than the present,

So anyone presented in her presence is doing these life sentences,

Theres no key for release,

No reason to be around,

Her minds in the clouds,

She writes it all down,

In her diary,

ENJOY

xoxoxoxoxoxox (oh la la la)

Untitled.

HEY.
One day I sat in my room & just wrote. Jotted down my thoughts. Every thought that came to mind. So basically I want to give it a try on my blog. Thought it would be fun & I could probally get ALOT off my chest. I dont EVER cuss but If I do. (excuse my language) I really want to say how I feel. Soo0o0o0 Here I go.


"Its funny how I can sit here & talk to a computer but can't talk to people. Funny how I sit alone most of the time thinking. thinking about life, love, more than I should EVER be thinking about. Today at work I looked at a pic of bear. Yea NIGGA bears.bear of all kinds . from a frog to a bunny. I find it interesting that people can come & fill their lives with happiness of a BEAR. HA i wish a bear can make me happy. Fuck that I wish life could make me happy. Basically no one understands what I go through in a course of a day. My mind wanders soo much that I cant even think straight. Maybe i am thinking straight but thinking backwards. Where do I go from here, Is really the question. Where do I start, How do i proceed??????? No one can tell me that but can tell me to happy. YEA shit it true but happiness dont come around to easy for me. sometimes dont come at all. Once I find happiness theres always something or someone screwing it up. I aint depress. Just lost. A common human not knowing what to do.. yeah I have dreams, wants & needs but is all that going make me. Who Am I? yea Im jassmire. Most niggas might referr to me as that bitch but Im a lady. or am i just a girl. Have i grown up or even matured to make myself a lady, a woman. PSHHHH!! forreal I dont kow me at all. I know who's ever reading this might think im crazy but ya'll have em days where the World just against you. everyone you love is just against you. everything & everyone is out to get you. "If I ruled the world" but its that easy. Pondering of what the outcome of everything might be. This is whathappens when i think too much. but let me stop & get back to this Math studying HA! like Im really going to try anymore. I found this a sucess. Im smiling and all. laughing..PEACE"




SOooooooo I read this over FIVE times. LOL laughin & smiling. because I feel like i shed 20 pds by just saying that.. ANYWHO. im not dumb nor am CRAZY. i really wanted to try this on my blog. & i might spelled som stuff wrong but thats the purpose of a freewrite. :) *dont judge me*

xoxoxoxoxoxoxxo (oh la la la)

Hey.

See everyone has a way to make them happy or hide the way they feel. & for me thats drawing & taking pics. Basically to really express my emotion. I'm not a talker nor a writer ,Im a "show'er <---- not a word but idc" I show my emotion. SO0o0o0 these pics may look like an AVERAGE "Oh jassmire taking more pics" but their not.. ANYWAYS Enjoy. & +++++ I alway put my sis in em. lol

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo (oh la la la)

Mrs Premo

Hey.!
(Miss me?)

So basically I take my bf clothes. & today I was super bored, so I decided to snap a couple of shots of me in his fitted & G-shock!!!!!

basically it began with me just goof 'n round.

then I was getting a lil confident in this fitted. :)

Till real comfy.

Then BAM!!!! JASSMIRE LOOKS LIKE A DUDE!!! ha

OMG i was totally laughin at myself. I really look like a dude (with make up) lol

yeah had to puit the thinking pic in there.

(since ALOT of guys take pics like this)

I really wasnt trying to tell time.

I dont know how to set that joint.

he gave it to me before time went back

so the time is still a hour ahead lol

(monroe in the back)

So I really had to put a pic of me laughin cuz

I was REALLY laughin after every pic I took.

& it just wouldnt be me with out it. :)

Had to take the hoodie off.
Me TRYIN to get sexy. :p

BLAH!

DONE!

Motives & Thoughts

Hey.

So I wanted to take you back into '98 .

seriously she's the illest female alive!

MY IDOL.INSPIRATION

Lauryn Hill

"motives & thoughts"

def jam '98

Rotating bodies, confusion of sound

Negative imagery, holding us down

Social delusion, clearly constructed

Human condition, morals corrupted

Trapped in reaction, lawlessness war

Dissatisfaction from bowels to core

Devil’s technology, strategy for

Human mythologies, urban folklore

Sick of psychology, counterfeit cure

Wicked theology, robbing the poor

Scheme demonology mislead the pure

Strictly strategically studying war

Light shown in darkness, image exposed

Few can see through the new emperor’s clothes

Lustful this hustle turn humans to hoes

When the blind lead the blind

Just more trouble and woes

It’s the mind that they chose

Its designed to stay closed

Standard of jokers, court just a logic

Sick looking cosmics, from schoolyards to college

Primitive man with civilize knowledge

System collapse and he still won’t acknowledge

God is the saviour, studies behavior

Trying to fix the mix mind that he gave ya

Stiff-necked scholars on prescription meds

Wishing their problems were all in their heads

Morale dilemma, pride is the root

Misguided from youth, heart divided from truth

Egyptians and Grecians, spiritually dead

Imperially led, by the gods in their heads

Motives and thoughts

Industrial wealth

Global economy, in it for self

Heart full of madness, covered with kind

Pleasure designed to take over your mind

Furnished in godliness, painted in good

This tainted priesthood got real saints misunderstood

While classes in government, set up the veil

And cultivate minds for more mythical tales

Typical Hollywood follies good girl

While vice and corruption take over the world

Motives and thoughts

Check your motives and thoughts

Blind with the wickedness, deep in your heart

Modern day wickedness is all you’ve been taught

Lied to your neighbors, so you get ahead

Modern day trickery is all you’ve been fed

Motives and thoughts

Check your motives and thoughts

xoxoxoxoxoxxo (oh la la la)

Aaron douglas

Hey.
Aaron Douglass. An African American Artist. (1899 - 1979)
(research him. his work is amazing)

I love this piece.

xoxoxoxxo (oh la la la)

EMPTY

Hey.

Song of the Week. Umm... Yea. I fell asleep listening to his ipod & woke up in the late hours of the night to this song. I really didnt listen to it at the time. But woke up the next morning curious. Listened to it, & fell in love.

This is for you.

"Empty"-Raheem Devaughn

[SPOKEN:]

Close your eyes and imagine life with me

Now imagine life without me

Could you do it?

I couldn't imagine life without you

Without you, I'd be... empty

To lie in the bed alone-empty

Shotgun in the ride-empty

My heart, my heart-empty

[VERSE 1:]

Ooh, you know you're lovesick when ya

Answer the phone and you hope to hear her voice

Ooh, you know you're lovesick when ya

Shut it down & make that girl your only choice

Ooh, lovesick when

When you wake up in the morning (just to fix her breakfast)

And I'll tell you how you know, your heart'll tell you so

When you found something good, you just can't let it go

One might spend a whole lifetime

Tryin' to find, the love that I have here with you

My heart & my... speaks for you

Without you I'd be lovesick and empty (I'd be empty without ya)

Love, so empty (ooh, so empty without ya)

Lovesick & empty (I'd be empty without ya)

So empty (So empty)

[VERSE 1:]

Ooh, you know you found the one

When you get on bended knee and words come out like marry me

Ooh, yes, you know you found the one

When the seconds feel like heaven in the blink of an eternity

Ooh, you know you found the one

When there's no thought of time and she's always on your mind

Ooh, you know you found the one

When you wanna be a better man, and man up like you can

[CHORUS]

Only gonna be alone

Searching the world for whatcha got at home

That would be a tragedy

If you miss out on what's meant to be

[Repeat]

[CHORUS]

[SPOKEN:]

Right after a light rain, have you ever seen a rainbow that touched the sky?

Where it meets next to a pot of gold

That's what your beauty... your beauty reminds me of

Like a full moon, it hangs next to the heavenly clouds from which you came

You're my shining star

I'd be lovesick

(listen to it.) it's nice.

xoxoxoxoxo (oh la la la) MUAH!